Nicole

Next year in Midland

This is really good–Martha rocks!

This is the best site ever–20 Questions against a computer–and it learns!

I’ve gotten more hours in the last 5 days (going out all five of them) than I usually do all month. What a difference weekday service makes.

Heading home tomorrow morning… I’ll have to call in to work Wednesday, which I HATE doing, but I need more time.

So I found this bizarre little html doc, obviously something started and then forgotten, but now I kinda like it the way it is, unformatted: all that you can’t leave behind. Oh yeah, and ignore the banner ad.

I have no appetite. I ate a bagel and a mac n’ cheese dinner today, and even that was a struggle. Weird. Maybe I’m getting the stomach flu weeks after everyone else.

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Study: Genesis 32-35

Music: Gladys & the Pips~~Midnight Train

Quote: “You love this town, even if it doesn’t ring true, you’ve been all over, and it’s been all over you.”

The past few days have been good. Skipping school for service felt surprisingly fantastic. It makes me wonder… but I won’t wonder, because I still remember what it was like 2 years ago, when I was going around with this nagging feeling in my head, saying, “It can’t go on like this indefinitely.” And it’s not going on like that, so I can’t second-guess.

Am I making a fool of myself? …Maybe. But it’s about time. I mean, I don’t quite know how to go about this (and that isn’t the best way to express it, either), but I am trying (really!), and everyone should at least have to try, right? I might look foolish, I might be the one who ends up crying, but… I’m not going to be indifferent. Or pretend to be.

What a weird way to say I’m happy, and I love the people around me. The game was good last night, I had a fun morning in service today, have actually relaxed a little today…

Riding instructors tell you one thing over and over (well, actually a lot of things): “Find your center.” If you are in centered balance on the horse, you are ready for anything, and while you don’t control everything, it’s not out of control either, you can react to it. You learn this simple little exercise of standing in your stirrups, leaning forward and getting way off your center, and slowly sitting down back into it. You have to put yourself in a slightly unnatural position to get back into the right one.

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Study: Romans 15-16

Music: Hootie~~Only Lonely (should get the sheet music to it)